Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Some Changes...

If there's anyone still interested in what I have to say here, if you're here and have been before you probably notice that there have been a few changes to the ol' blog. A few changes to the blog and a LOT of changes in my life.

Brian and I are getting divorced.

It came as a shock to a lot of people, including me, really, but it's happening. I'm not going to go into a huge dissertation about why the bottom fell out, I'm not going to erase old posts that show us as a family, I'm just going to carry on as this is just another challenge, another chapter in my life and in the lives of the kids that is now part of who we are and who we will become.

My friend Amy brought up a good point that I'd like to reiterate here... in that a lot of folks will call a divorce a "failure" of sorts, because the expectation of a "successful" marriage is till one of the two involved people dies. After all, it is "till death do us part.." isn't it? She brought up a good point, however, as we were talking the other day in that a marriage doesn't have to last until eternity to be successful. We had our success for sure without a doubt. And for a long time, we did have what I would consider a "successful" marriage. But those success began to fall apart and what was successful and fulfilling turned otherwise.

So, I guess the moral of the story, and probably one of the driving forces to cause me to rekindle this blog - and only make minor changes to it - is the thought that even though it has become unsuccessful, for a time (a long time) is was a success, and that I and we are not failures for this outcome.

This, too, shall pass and life will go on. I've been busy rebuilding my home, my life, my family, and myself. I'm fine (because I know that's the next question), and I will be fine. It's just gonna take some time getting used to this...